The day my life changed is approaching..

I wrote this in another blog (Myspace of course hehe) and directed some of you here. I only hope this will let you get to know me better.

Feb 20,06 the day I changed my life.. its almost here!
So.. February 20 is approaching the day my life changed.. The day I'll always remember. The day all my true friends showed me who they were. In this last year so many things in my life have changed, I'm a different person, I'm actually happy. Here are just a few things I want to say.

Ex - Feb 20 the day you walked out the door. I thought my life was over. I picked up your mess you left behind, I borrowed money to survive, I packed everything in the apartment and moved it, even with all the memories tearing me apart. I didn't get the coward exit that you did I had to deal with it. Dealing with the problem instead of escaping has taught me many things and I'm now proud of who I am. I will never forgive you for the way you left, for never speaking to me and giving me any explanation, for taking my dogs and never returning them. You knew how much they meant to me and that was just an extra stab to break my heart even more. I no longer need or want your reasons, you never made me truly happy but I thank you for giving me life back for if I hadn't gone through all of this, I wouldn't be the strong person I am today. I could care less what you do with that truck anymore. Someday it will haunt you but maybe you will grow up.

Mom, Dad, Melissa - Thank you for listening to me, letting me cry, being at my side just so I wasn't alone, giving me advice, giving me the money I needed. For the continous support you have given me over the year to help me become who I am today, encouraging me to achieve my goals. I can finally feel for once I have made you proud to be your daughter or sister. Melissa I cannot thank you enough for letting me be apart of Tatum's birth, that alone helped me changed my life.

Steven - Thank you for helping me move. For being the little brother who wanted to kick some ass to stick up for me. For your blunt comments helped me realize he wasn't worth crying for and I needed to get it together.

Samantha - Thank you for all the sleepless nights I kept you awake, for without your support I may have let depression get the best of me. For taking the time at a drop of hat when I needed you, for listening to me freak out. Your continueous encouragement to better myself.

Dawn - We weren't that close prior to this but that didn't matter you were there when I needed you. You even gave me money so I could have gas to go to work! You picked up the slack for me at work as my mind was not there. Joining the gym with me and encouraging me to keep it up. For noticing when my jeans were too big!shopping for clothes, listening to all my goals, dreams, fears, regardless of how crazy they were. Making me eat even if I didn't want to. We will get there together, having someone with the same goal as me as made it all that much easier to not loose track.

Misty - You are my longest friend, you know every experience I've ever been through. I called you one week before this to ask you to be in my wedding, and you said yes, regardless of the fact that we hadn't talked in almost 2 years. You were there for me if I was getting married or needed a shoulder to cry on. For talking to me about the same thing over and over reminding me of who I am, and all those dreams we had since we were 18 and living in our tiny apartment. For all the crazy diets I tried and you'd try with me, for all the crazy reasons I even wanted to diet, you always told me to do it for me, to love me for me, for once I finally got it.

Dave - You have always been there for me, listening to me ramble about my sadness, fears, crazy stories of men in my life. You never judged me or asked questions. You let me be me. I was able to achieve some of my goals and dreams simply because of you. You took me to Sea World my favorite place I hadn't been to in 10 years, to see dolphins and watched me cry at the Shamu show and didn't think I was a weirdo! You took me to the ocean just because I said I wanted to go, regardless of the fact that it was late at night. You taught me how to be happy with myself again.

Thank you all very much my friends :)